Youngs & I

Combi Lightweight Stroller

2010-02-01T01:57:00.000-08:00

Hello all,

I'm quite upset with myself today...I don't know why.
Suddenly feel like a super lousy mother.
Recently, Jesse kinda refuse to suckle on my breast to sleep.
Its either he's uncomfortable or he wants to be carried or he wants to play orrrrrr he is not familiar with the place.
Had been having hard time to make him sleep on Sat & Sun over @ Keith's place.
On saturday, I took 2-3 hours to make him sleep!!
He was super tired.But yet he doesn't want to sleep.He will keep crying and crying.Only I can carry him..and when I carry him he makes noise too. Unexplainable night.
Don't know what was wrong...
Then yesterday night he was being carried to sleep by my MIL..he cried to sleep..while this toy(playing music) was on.
Feeling? Like shit.
Wonder why I can't make him sleep the way I used to do...
Hope tonight would be a smooth night.
Anw, got him a 2nd hand playpen n a Combi stroller...condition??Not very appealing-.-
But the pictures what was online appeared good...Never judge a book by its cover.
However, it would be used for times i'm out alone w/o keith cuz its a lightweight stroller..need to do some cleaning up on it..(sometimes I wished I had ALOT of $$ so I can afford everything, the best for him. But no, I'm a non-working mother. Still relying on my parents for $$) Sucks to feel this way :( Hope I can quickly get my bond and get a monthly allowance..
Oh ya.. on the way home juz now when we got into the cab in a rush, I was carrying Jesse n his leg was below my leg and I wanted to move in and sat+dragged his feet across the seat..he immediately cried so much..I felt. 100% like S.H.I.T.
Hate myself so much..
There's this one thing I cannot take is when a baby/infant/child(your flesh n blood)..gets hurt..physically..like say...accidentally fall down or smth and starts crying so badly..I can't take this kinda thing but I know my turn would come...even thou how much you keep an eye.The worse always happens..

Emo feeling.
Sux.
K.
Thx.
Bye...

MIA-ness is over!!

2010-01-28T18:35:00.000-08:00

Hello all!

Jesse is now 4 months and 4 days old! :)
I'm going to unblock this private blog so that all my/jesse's stalkers can read about our life. Interesting hur?
Hahahah, its really amazing how many people will stare and give the O_O look when I'm out with him..

Questions like
1) Is he your son??
You look so young!!
2)How old are you??
3)He really your son???
4)Did your mother scold you?
5)Are you working?

and the questions goes on and on..hahah..But quite used to it..
Ok, will update again soon!

Off to school!
Ciao^^

2009-10-06T01:46:00.000-07:00

Baby has been cranky yesterday & today.Taking so much outta me.Feel so drained..
Need to take things slowly...and enjoy every moment with him being a new born child..
Looking forward to days with Daddy Young's help...
Tomorrow he will be on off!Cuz we are going to do baby's Birth Cert.
Haven't been out w him for so long..seems so long cuz this 2weeks since baby was born things seems to pass quite slowly and idk..things just changed alot.

13days till my birthday,and till school starts.
Then i'll be on holiday from morning till abt 4ish? & when i'm back,taking care of baby will be my job from Monday-Thursday...
Trying to keep myself from having post natal depression...
So i'll be handling him from monday-thursday..then weekends will be with Keith.

13 more days...
Wed-w keith
Thurs-alone
Fri-w keith after 6pm
Sat-w keith
Sun-w keith
Monday-home
Tues-home
Wed-home
Thurs-home-
Fri-w keith after 6pm
Sat-w keith
Sun-w keith

so..ill be "alone" for abt 5-6 more days...b4 school starts for me..

♥Jesse Young Sheng ♥

2009-10-01T21:59:00.000-07:00

Sup!!My cow cow job has 1/2 stopped for maybe 1 week till my nipples heal from those cracks and sore.All the bleeding.Woo!Super painful plz. T.T

Anw,if you guys are interested in the birth story of Baby Jesse.Here goes...
I didn't exactly follow the timing but its arnd there.So yeh.

40weeks 3days...24th September 2009
Around 10am I checked into KKH,for inducement.
Was sent to do CTG for 1/2 an hour and then to insert my 1st pill.
Around 1pm?I was done and asked to wait for my bed..went to eat with Keith @ Macs.
Then was called shortly after to go up to my ward.
Headed up..slack...no intense contractions what so ever.Watched TV...used comp..
Around 5 odd,my gynae came and see me.Checked my cervix.Not opened yet. -.-!!
She forced dno what in.& soon after she left..
Contractions came...super painful..but still kinda bearable.
So around 7pm..went down to walkwalk and keith had his dinner.
Contractions were so painful!!!!
Cannot take it..went up...bare with the pain till around 9plus.Keith went home.Cuz visiting hrs were over.& my mom came shortly after that!Didn't know she could come up..
I fell asleep after keith left and woke up when my mom came..The pain was so painful...
Around 10pm this midwife came and check on me.My mom told her I was in real pain..
She asked if I wanna go down to the labour ward.Where they will monitor me closely there.So decided to head down..and they said that I had another Prostin insertion at 10pm...but went down.Contractions were so regular and quite intense.So could not insert pill..

40weeks 4days. 25th September 2009
Fell asleep and woke up with irregular contractions.So inserted 2nd pill around 2am in the morning.Regular contractions came but not peaking.
Around 8plus am in the morning my gynae came to check on me.Only 1.5cm dilated!
She forced my cervix to open abit and burst my waterbag..put me on drip..
Contractions soon came super regular and very super painful!!!
Around 11am couldn't take it.Keith called my mom to come down and sign for my epidural cuz I was in super duper pain.
Mom came around 12noon and signed stuff..and I finally had my epidural!!HOORAYYYY!!
hahahaha..Was feeling song after that.Could take short naps etc.
Around 5plus gynae came again.Checked my cervix.Only 3cm dilated!!How can like that?
So she told my mom that if by 8pm there isn't any good progress,I would have to go for C-section.As baby would be in distress being inside for so long already.
@8pm....doctors on duty came in and checked my cervix.Still 8pm..
Was brought for C-section immediately..
@ 2043pm darling boy Jesse was born!! :)

Super painful process..about 34hrs of labor...Felt so relieved after that..
Now my nipples are all sore...gonna die soon T.T

Seeya!

25th September 2009 @ 2043

2009-09-28T19:50:00.000-07:00

Hello all!My dear son is finally out.he is about...4 days old now.doing fine :) totally breastfeeding.
Labor process was however very painful and torturous but managed to pull through till the end,even after 30hours of being in pain...
He was born via emergency C-sec cuz I still couldn't dilate after 24hours+.
But all is good :)
Want to Thank all who came down to the hospital to visit.We appreciate your love.

Will be heading back to school in 2 weeks time...can't believe time passes so quickly now.& I'm also gonna be 18 soon!Going to register marriage also.heeheeee.
Wonder how my 18th Birthday would be spent?Jesse would be less than a month old then..hmm....wonder if we should bring him out to have dinner etc.hahahaaa..

Ok I really hope school is gonna be short and sweet this coming sem...it would help alot.I hope that most of the lessons would be in the morning so i can go home in the noon to take care of baby.That is about it.Seeya^^

Should I post my long birth story out?But its not exactly remembered in a very detailed manner...as in the exact time etc.

Okay,cya!

Tomorrow is, De-day!

2009-09-22T21:02:00.000-07:00

Hello people.

Yes,i've still not given birth -.-!
I'm currently 40+3days today?
& i'll be heading down to KKH to induce tmrw morning!
So hopefully he would be out by night!

Anyway,my results are out!
I passed everything!Amen!Even though I didn't get at least a 3 for my GPA i'm cool w it..
knowing that certain modules I started to mug only the night before..
hmm...
next sem would be better I hope?
:)

Will be having lil Jesse's pix up soon when he's out!
Actually..still thinking where I should put his pix..cause I don't want some disgusting people to see him!You know,like some people are out there to kill me,moreover,him...I'm still too poor to hire him a body guard @ this age ya kno.HAHAHA!

Okay,bye!

Cause I've hearts all over the world (:

2009-09-17T21:14:00.000-07:00

39+5 today.Can you imagine that?I never expected myself to hit full-full term 40weeks!
Guess i'm doing it!Hahaha, I've check up later & I hope to hear something like I'm 2cm dilated or 3? Having to go back during my 37/38 weeks & gynae telling me I'm 0cm dilated really somehow irritates me..Like...I've been having pains on and off so freaking often!Just not the real contractions!So friggin annoying ya kno!

Anw I thought my mom would be nice to take time off later to go for check up w me.Yes,she is.
But we are leaving here @ 315pm and my check up is @ 4pm and she needs to be back in school @ 515pm!!Damit!Seriously!!!I wanted to get a ride to Pasir Ris after the check up..save my trip there on the freaking bus!!

Ughz. >:@

Ok,hope you hear good news from me soon.
Till then,
xxx

HIEEE

2009-09-14T03:32:00.001-07:00

me !sh 39weeks t0day l3rhZ.

hahaha.Sorry don't bother about the twit.I love twitting to irritate people.
Okay so while bloghopping..i've decided to be constructive & do some hands on on my f21 oversized plain shirts that i've bought for 11bux each.i've 3 of them.well im going to cut them up and maybe use fabric paint to draw on it during confinement @ fatty young's house to keep my company when baby young is asleep...hmm...good idea?
these way,I hope time pass faster &&& at least I won't feel so useless..

Wonder when baby young will come out? 9 months & 3 weeks liao lei small baby.
Daddy + Mummy wanna see you soonxx.

xxx

omg i accidentally logged onto my agapecloset blogger & posted this.
-.-

10 days till Edd

2009-09-11T05:44:00.000-07:00

Yes, 10 days till my edd...hmm..wonder when this rascal would want to come out & see mummy and daddy..hopefully very soon! :D We are all anticipating his arrival!
Quite amazed I'm going to reach my 39th week!I held him inside for abt 10 long months!!
I thought that after my exams that is when I hit 37 weeks he would be about there...cuz I get quite frequent sharp pains..but seems like he's still not ready?
Every day/moment I wonder when will I go into labor...seems so near yet so far!

Await for my Good news folks!
Till then!

10/09/2009

2009-09-09T10:38:00.000-07:00

Today seems to be a not bad day as well.
Yes,I've not given birth..On my hopeful day of 09/09/09 to see lil' Jesse.
I'm not even dilated yet :( Gynae asked me to walk arnd more..
Ok..i'm so heading out tmrw..going to meet evelyn & vic!
Yayzzzz^^

Hopefully it'll be tmrw!Hahaha..bye!

2 hours till 8 September AKA 1 day to 09/09/09!! :]

2009-09-07T07:43:00.000-07:00

My mom has been telling me that if you want your kid to come out on the 9th you have to think 9th! Having faith its the 9th...and keep believing..now everyone is geared up for the 9th...expecting baby Jesse to arrive on this date..

Lately since Saturday I've been having cramps...sharp pains and the strong urge to shit...
I can feel him very low...I think its the preparation for baby...hahaha..
I'm so excited...I wish that labour will start after evening tmrw..so that the earliest I will deliver is 12midnight on the 9th or like go into labour at the start of midnight of 09/09/09!!HAHAHA.....I must keep proclaiming it!!Think the 9th Pelyn!!! :)

Okay...so now im all ready..Hospital Bag packed..in the car already..Just my last minute admission kit/camera/waterbottle and handphone charger must be remembered to be brought in with me!
Hahahaha........So i wish to wake up tomorrow with this saying...OMG THIS IS IT!!IT IS 1 DAY MORE TO GO...and if I do not feel sharp pains when i wake up..ill get ready/hipped up and meet Yeeting to go drink Green coconut before I give birth..I heard its good!! :) :) :)

Hehehe.Hope everyone is awaiting the good news of our bundle of joy that would be arriving anytime! His kicks are super powerful lately...hahahaha..can't wait to say Hello darling to him..
I'm sure his dad my parents and his parents would be so thrilled to see this addition to the family!

Oh yeh.I'm 38 weeks today!It also marks that i'm officially full term!
The pregnancy news say that 95% of the woman gives birth within this 2 weeks...
Heheheh, hope my labour comes earliest tmrw evening...I'm also excited to feel the contraction pain...I'm sure everything will be fine..I've hold him 9 mths 2 weeks and counting...Its time I say Hi to him :)
I'm gonna be a mom....time my thinking and acting become more matured!

Seeyall! :)

4 more days!!!

2009-09-05T02:26:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was quite a happening day..Met up w bestfriend Fatty Nah for some pigging out.
Seriously,she's THE ONE to go out with to satisfy all your fat cravings cause she will happily pig out with you.hahaha..We had some sushi at this idk where shop thats like near suntec city..& we had Jap/European icecream after that..Then we headed to Esplanade..to satisfy our wanting to have Max Brenners Churros!..but we decided we would just die flat if we head there right after our icecream!So we went to this sushi restaurant somewhere @ esplanade and had a drink and ate some sushi..Followed by Max Brenners.Omg!!You see the way we eat!Its quite crazy! From Sushi to Icecream to Sushi then to Max brenners!!Like....sushi desert.sushi desert.But it was all good!!Love it.Must go to Max Brenners again!!!! :) :) :) :) :) Must meet fatty nah out soon again...hopefully her A's ends quickly & she can come be Jesse's nanny.HAHAHA...

so.....Time flies!4 more days and I would be ready for Jesse to come out!! :)
I've been having this constant sharp pain whenever I stand up or walk around!
I hope to hold till the 7th or 9th at least..I don't want 6th or 8th of Sept.Hahaaa.
Anw,today is such a super duper boring day..Saturdays are always boring cuz Keith would be doing his CSO from morning till 5pm! & here I will be, rotting my life away waiting for him to come back!!
He has about 4 more weeks of CSO..hopefully Jesse would be accompanying me for the next 4 weeks!At the same time, time can pass faster like that.. & i won't be feeling so sian every week...
Moreover everyone is on attachment now,makes my days more sian..No one to msn in the morning/afternoon..hahaha..but soon when Jesse is out, I think i'll be super busy?hahaah...excited to see him and learn how to take care of him...

We'll be heading to this Kaki Bukit place tomorrow to see a few more Baby's stuff..like maybe a small wardrobe for baby..hmm...hopefully the sharp pains would spare me for tomorrow!!
As the day approaches nearer to De-day 09/09/09 i'm quite excited!hehehe.
I want to experience the feeling of carrying your own flesh & blood in your hands..
This 9+ months of carrying him around and finally getting to see him...its as if I knew him so well already!Knowing all his patterns and movements as he wakes up and kicks around..or just responding to music or playing with his daddy!Heheee.It would be a lifetime experience that only a few of us Young Mummies can feel....hahaa..as in,being mothers at such young age..sacrificing so much for our lil' one.All young mothers are very wei da!! :)

Okay, i'm now waiting for fatty young to pick me up!He said his friend is driving us out to have dinner..wooo...excited!Hopefully I won't have major cramps inbetween..hahaa...

Seeyou guys!

6 Days Till 9 Sept 2009!

2009-09-03T04:15:00.000-07:00

Hello! Just got back not long ago from KK for my check up!

Alot of things cocked up bcuz the nurse confused us for Premium Package & Classic Package.
That made us decide to go for B2+ Classic Package..Which we didn't understand that taking that package would consider us as Government subsidy and so I would have to have my check ups @ Clinic B!!Which is a hassle!!So we're going to change it to B1 ward...So hopefully I don't have anymore checkups cuz the next check up would be on the 9th of September!Which I hope Jesse would be out that day.HAHAHA..if not i'm also gonna skip that check up..This week check up would amount to abt 200 bucks just because I got transfered to Clinic B & also Doc Yeap was on MC...so another doc took over..blahblahlbah..said my waterbag level was low and had to do CTG.But went for check up just now and everything is ok!Next check up 9/9/09 hope baby would be out that day :D

Bye Folks!

12 more days

2009-08-27T20:24:00.000-07:00

yayy yayyy!exams are ova!!!
Can't wait for baby to come out now! hehheehe..
you know..i'm quite weird..i hardly think of the labour pain..
all im looking forward is for his arrival!so exciting!!
heheeheheeeeeee.
but firstly,need to get baby's necessities this Sunday @ BB fair..
then slowly throughout next week pack and do last min stuffzz..
Sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo,exciting manz...............
hahaha..ok i wonder when will he want to pop out? 09/09/09?
Possible?I shall pray..hahaha........
BB fair yesterday was so crowded!Serzly manz^^
Imagine on Sunday..Can faint liao :(
I walked in Orchard for lyk...8hrs straight yesterday...amazing man...
haha...going off!Byezzzzzzz

2 more weeks! :)

2009-08-25T20:34:00.000-07:00

Hello awesome ladies!!
I don't think I invited guys to read my boring blog.hahahaah..
ONE MORE DAY TILL EXAMS ARE OVER!!
I can finally sit down and pack my stuff for BB's arrival! :)
I'll be full term next week..Hopefully Jesse would stay in till 09/09/09!!
Anw,I badly want to go Msia for a few hours..But my parents are not really keen on that..
They rather not take the risk..incase I go into labour anytime you know!!
Been having this cramps @ my lower tummy area....very painful..it comes like at times.or when i'm walking..I think its braxton kick contractions?
I can feel baby really low already..wonder when will he come out..how does he look like..
hehe..
After tomorrow i'll have my long awaited time of my life...My baby's arrival plus 1 and a half months of bonding with him before I head back to school..
I think i'm going to try for bonding with KK Hospital next yr..after my attachment in march/april(6 weeks).
With that amount of $$ I can bring up Jesse without the help of my parents!!
Thats awesome stuff..But I heard KK's quite hard to bond with...hmm....
Okay..its time I eat & study for my last paper tomorrow!Hooray!

2 weeks 1 day.

2009-08-24T22:27:00.000-07:00

YAY!!Like finally i'm almost done with my examzzz!!
Last paper on Thursday & i'll be having the time of my life.
Doing my last min b4 motherhood stuff & also getting ready for him to arrive.
I'm so eggcited!!

Anyways,I need to head down to the baby fair @ Taka this weekend!
Time to pack my hospital bag...hahaha......
I want to go Malaysia b4 I deliver..but i'm already full term...its quite dangerous?
Lol...heck it!

hahaha...brain dying from all the studying alr..gonna take a short nap b4 i go for check up @ 4pm..
Seeyall! :)

Weekends Blues

2009-08-23T07:25:00.000-07:00

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Hello folks!!

Friday was quite good!But tiring..Went out for the 1st time to meet young mummies..
All their babies were so cute plz!!I wished Jesse was alr out.hahahaah...with like 7 strollers and 9 of us walking arnd J8..everyone would stare :O at us when we walk by..hahhaa..wonder why?!
Ashton is so cuteee.I took pics of him..let me share some..

Weekends are like hibernating time for me..since weekdays are so warm and humid..I sleep like 3/5 the time there.HAHA..like a big fat pig.

Anyway..Pearl told me there's a baby fair coming up this thursday for 2 weeks!Time to get my last min stuff.Hope to meet more young mummies hang out tgt before i deliver!That would be awesome man!Any young mummies wanna go baby fair tgt? :)

Okay..i think its time i shower & study..paper tomorrow.and tuesday and thursday!!

See you people soon!byebyeeee.

Sleepless Nights

2009-08-20T10:46:00.000-07:00

U know something I really hate when I'm over here @ Yishun?
Is the freaking nights that I seriously dread...
Its so muthafucking warm here.
I can literally die of the heat..
I can wake up 3 times to shower..
I hope I have an aircon in my room........
Haiz...
Since i can't be over there during confinement...& also I can't be here cuz of the renovations..the noise and all...Sometimes when I really sit down and think abt it..it pisses me off so much...& no one would understand............I wish some people could show more care and concern for me..
Now I dread each night...lying on the bed for a few hrs,yet I can't get to sleep.............
Really hate this feeling...so much.......

Tomorrow will be a better day..
I think i'll sleep in the living room again..............................
Goodnight.

SUP!!

2009-08-19T22:33:00.000-07:00

Hello World!!

I'm going to take my psychology paper say in 2 hrs + and i've not revised enuf!
& My blogskin is v.v.v. ugly now.I know!!Bare with it please!
I'm going to revamp it like slowly..or maybe after exams which is like the 27th August (Next Thursday)..For now...just look at this ugly template ok?Thx.Luv you all a million.
Anw, this bloggie is only opened to invited readers..so no biggie!
I have a list of stuff I wanna do b4 baby comes out!

1)Swimming
2)Prawing
3)Having those heavenly churros @ esplanade. (Someone who wants to go w me plz tell me!!)
4)Have more Bakerzin Desserts...theres like 50% off all classic deserts this Aug.(Ends 31st Aug!!)
5)Do my nails
6)Trim my hair
7)Trim my brows
8)Get my last min stuff like, disposable breast pads/pads/disposable undies/baby's diapers/nursing bras..etc..(Can't remember all!)
9)Pack my hospital Bag..
10)Watch Boys over Flowers.HAHA
11)Go out shopping!!

Okay, anyone free to date me out?plz tell me k...
I'm giving myself 1 week to do all these stuff b4 waiting for BB to come out...Hopefully 9th of September..But i'll be 38 weeks then!So at the 37th week Jesse should be a goodie boy and let mummy do all the stuff she wants to do first! :)
Okay I should shower now & do my last min revision before I head out to school for my Fish Soup and then Psychology paper!!

I wanna know a few more young mummies..quite cool actually..hahaha.....but i'm still abit shy :X

1 day till Exams.

2009-08-11T00:15:00.000-07:00

Sup decided to change to blogger cuz xanga's customization page sucks & I can't do shit abt it!
Exams tomorrow.I better mug.